The six-month mark.

Today officially marks the six-month mark of Mr. B walking out of my life, leaving me buried in a mountain of snotty kleenex and shattered dreams.

The past six months have been a mixed bag of highs and lows.

I have drunk more merlot than any functioning human being with a day job should be able to do; permanently stained countless pillow cases with mascara tears (note to self: invest in waterproof version); drafted dozens of scathing letters that never got mailed and made up a plethora of revenge fantasies that typically include me nonchalantly running into Mr. B with my new boyfriend. Liam Hemsworth. (I never said they were realistic.)

On the flip side, I have solidified some of the most important relationships in my life; ridden on the back of a bicycle at 2 a.m. down the streets of London laughing until I cried; watched the sun set over the breathtaking red landscape of the Grand Canyon; danced the night away with an Ed Sheeran look-alike under the Eiffel Tower and generally opened myself up to experiences I would have previously turned down in lieu of Skype dates and pining over my long-distance douchebag.

Most importantly, I’ve taken a step back and completely re-evaluated my life. Though initially very painful to let go of the idea of my future with Mr. B, rebuilding my own version of what I want for my life, albeit sometimes terrifying, has also been incredibly liberating.

Big changes/updates coming up. Some I am looking forward to sharing with you over the next few weeks, others I will surprise you with when you least expect them. *dun dun dun*

Stay tuned!

“All great changes are preceded by chaos.”

Current Status: marathon watching Dragon’s Den / OD’ing on green tea  / mourning the dissolution of Bennifer

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7 thoughts on “The six-month mark.

  1. ChristineAndTruffles says:

    Just wanted to tell you how helpful your blog has been to read. I was in an extremely similar situation to yours, which just recently ended.. so I am several steps behind you. I am still in the kleenex/wine/pizza phase… Reading your blog gives me a great sense of hope that u will get through this rough patch and move forward. Keep writing– I’m anxious to hear how the last month has unfolded!! Thanks again.

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    • Finding My Inner Zen says:

      Thanks, Christine. Glad you enjoyed reading it, and that it proved helpful for you. I hope you are slowly lifting yourself out of the kleenex/wine/pizza phase (although an essential one to live through), and that the world is making more sense.

      I’ve taken a bit of a break from writing but will be providing updates soon!

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