When I was with Mr. B, I was plagued by the constant need to know what was coming up next: Where was this going? How would we end up together? Don’t get me wrong, Mr. B ended up being a giant asshole. But maybe if I had slowed it down – just a titch – I wouldn’t have been so bat shit crazy when it all blew up in my face, hung up on a life that solely existed in my crazy girl brain.
I’m very aware of the fact that if I don’t slow it down, I’m going to miss my life. As fucked up and unpredictable it can be at times, it is also pretty exciting and magical at other times. Besides, it’s all mine!
So here it goes. For Month 1 – Cultivating Mindfulness, these are the only five things I am going to concentrate on. Nothing more; nothing less.
- Learn to meditate
- Practice daily gratitude
- Move my body for 45 minutes each day
- Be conscious about everything I put into my body
- Stay in the present – no planning for the future
My Year of Self will also have three overarching rules, which will be followed no matter which month I’m in:
- Start and end my day by reading my me-mantras
- Carry new habits forward into next month
- Write every day – no excuses
The liberating part of this month is that I’m giving myself permission to let go of any pending decision making. Already with that, I feel so much lighter. Even this blog post – no editing! I’m just clicking Publish. #yolo
Current Status: in a hotel room munching on peanuts / never want summer to end / listening to Donatan Cleo feat. Enej – Brać